Day 80

Saturday… I allow myself to stay in bed longer so I only get up at 8 am. I hear the kids talking while I go to the shower so I know that in a little bit they’ll be knocking on my door. I’m ready exactly at the same time the kids are coming down for breakfast so there’s no knocking only smiles and good mornings. While the kids have breakfast, Xuan and me go to Lady Bulldog and then buy food for lunch at the market.

At home, Xuan has to work with Miss Hoan so I prepare my nail stuff and start practicing a little bit more…

 It’s time for lunch and there are ribs and prawns, steamed rice and soup. I eat the ribs, the rice and the soup and I feel ok. I go back to my practice until my parents show up on Skype and we have a long talk ending with me frustrated, stressed and disappointed… so I grab my stuff my computer and get out of the house, my mind is so not here that I even forget the camera. I start walking without knowing where I wanna go until I decide to go to the center so I wave at a taxi and ask the driver to take me to Saigon center and from there I can walk to the ice cream place where they have free Wi-Fi.

As soon as I find the place I seat at a table, order 2 scoops of ice cream (yogurt and avocado), turn on my computer and start searching… searching for jobs, here, in Australia, in the UK, anywhere… the ironic thing: as in Portugal, there’s not that many production jobs and the ones I find I have to speak Hungarian or Swedish which I don’t. I find 2 offers plus I sign in in a couple of other job offers sites and now it’s time to wait, something I’ve been starting to get used… I continue frustrated and feeling hopeless so I order a cà phê sữa đá and continue my quest of job search…

Around 5 pm I get up and start walking home. It’s not raining, there’s a little bit of wind but it’s very nice to walk with the weather like this. I curse myself for not bringing the camera with me as I see a couple of situations I’d like to register for posterity… anyway, there’s nothing to do about it so when I arrive home I head to my room and finish my nail practicing painting.

It’s time for dinner and I go down, my mood is still sh*tty so I eat without a word and Xuan respects my mood… then I go to my room and start watching some TV shows, I try to fall asleep but my head is full of cr*p and my brain doesn’t stop working… it’s almost midnight and I’m still awake, guess I’ll let you know tomorrow how did this night go…